Say what?

I've been noticing that statements I make about myself don't seem to be true based on what those around me are saying in response to my statements. I've also talked to a friend or two about this and they also say that I am not the way I describe myself. It made me think, where I came up with those traits that I seem to identify myself with that are incorrect?

I think that over the years other people have made comments or shared descriptions about me and I have just allowed them to stick around. The other side of this little trip is that I really don't see myself this way. So, why do I make these comments?

I talk rudely to people

I don't know how to talk to people

I am cold

I am unapproachable

I am confrontational

I am intimidating

I talk down to people 

I am harsh with my words

I am anti-social

I am a bitch

I don't smile enough

I am not nice or friendly

The other odd thing is that I'm not really sure "how" I am or am not these things or anything else for that matter. I mean I am my own reference and do not share the inner Jen with most. So, I suppose I just accepted at some point that this is the way I come off to people. I am happy to say that my hard work has paid off over the years and I am not these things anymore. 

It makes me wonder how different am I from what people used to or have said about me? What other opinions have I accepted about myself that are no longer accurate? 

I wish I could see myself from other people's eyes. I beginning to feel like I don't have a good grip on people's perceptions of me and the way I come off to others. 

I think that some self discovery in this department is needed. Stay tuned!

xoxo